Sometimes it is hard to believe we've been married 13 years. That means we have loved each other even longer than that. Everyone who has known us a long time must know that it hasn't always been easy. We've had our rough spots, but the one thing we have managed to do is always find our way back to one another. I can say that without you, I feel completely miserable. Thinking about yet another deployment rips my heart up. I am dreading it like you would not believe. Before we had children, I always thought that if we had kids, at least I would have company, but now that Autumn and Emelia are here and we've gone through deployment with them, I realize that it doesn't get any easier. It may even be worse. Watching them hurt for you, I know it is the same hurt my heart feels. That just compounds things. So for now, I just try not to think about it. I want to tell you, the day after our 13 years together that I owe you so much. You taught me about being loyal,...