Twas the Night before chemo....

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Tomorrow I go for round 4 of my dose dense chemotherapy.

It is known in the cancer world as the red devil.

I refuse to call it that.

I'm not allowing a "red devil" to enter my body.

The night before chemo is hard.

I now know what is getting ready to happen.

The pain.

The nausea.

It fills me with dread and I feel like a dead man walking.

I'll be very picky about what food I eat today because the next three days, food will be a struggle.

How do I get through the day before chemo?

The last three rounds I exercised (1).

I keep reminding myself that I am strong (2).

Finally, I spend time in prayer (3).

Psalm 139: 5-12

You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

Cherish HOPE

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