Sad and Stressed.

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You ever have one of those days where the stress just feels toxic? That is how I feel. My head hurts, my stomach hurts and I cannot figure out for the life of me how to feel better. I know I am not sick, I am just that stressed out.

Autumn has been especially cranky the last few days. She seems overly tired and extremely hungry. I do not know if she is going through a growth spurt, or if her first tooth is finally going to make an appearance, maybe it is both. It hurts me deep down to see her so upset though when she is normally such a happy human. This is the main source of my stress.

Sean leaves on Monday for awhile. He will miss our anniversary (again) and Valentine's Day. I was planning on going out to a nice dinner and even lined up a babysitter which I will now have to cancel. It is so disappointing to me. I cannot wait for Sean to retire. It is so difficult without Sean around and my heart misses him so. I guess it is good practice for Autumn to say goodbye since the deployment is coming up. I have to get out of this funk I am in. Maybe I will plan a special anniversary dinner that Autumn and I can attend.

I ran across this picture and wanted to post it. It was taken in May (Autumn was 3 months old). It makes me smile.

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