Boots to Fill.

I came across your boots this morning and I was filled with a mix of emotions. First, a sadness washed over me. What big shoes I will have to fill while you are away. I know not what sort of things will pop up or what things the girls will say or think about it. What I do know is that there will be tears. Our hearts will ache for you like they have never ached before. There will be an emptiness that not one single person, save you, can fill. One of the hardest parts of being Cherish is the being strong when I most want to be weak. To cry and throw my arms around you and beg you not to leave. No one gains from that, so I cry privately, away from little girls and away from you. I pull myself together and say, not now. Now is the time for love and laughter. That is what these boots represent.

Once I worked through what was making me so sad, a feeling of responsibility came over me. Not just mine, for we know all to well that I will need to take care of our precious girls, try to mend their broken hearts as best I can, but you have a grave responsibility too. For you will have to maintain a clear and striking mind whilst knowing all that you will be missing out on. Once you leave, our family will never be as it is now, it will always be new and changing. I will do my best to keep you in the know, but, there will be special, private moments that you miss out on. I wish there were a way I could pack a hug from Autumn or a slobbering kiss from Millie.

Lastly, these boots bring about a sense of strength. A quiet strength. One that does not cry. One that does not waiver, but one that stands strong, knowing that no matter what happens, we shall be waiting here, patiently for your return.