When I'm feeling blue
Maybe I should start with last night.....
I was so tired last night. More than normal. I know it was likely from cutting the grass. It really does a number on my allergies and I'm not sure what our course of action will be in the future in regards to that. There has to be something I can do to help me not feel so awful after having cut the grass. I'm very conscience of breathing through my nose when I'm cutting the grass, but my eyes burns and it takes several days to recover fully from mowing. I'm wondering if I should wear a hospital mask thing and some protective eye wear (I have some!)?
Anyway, I had to take an allergy pill before bed and I was just very worn out and at some point, Autumn ended up in the bed with me. I thought it was like 5 or 6 am when she climbed in, but after a few hours, I rolled over and looked at the clock and it was 3 am. SO, Miss Autumn pretty much spent the night with me.
She kept twitching though. I don't know if she was dreaming, but it was like she thought she was falling and would tense her whole body. I fussed at her and told her she needed to be still if she was going to sleep with me and crazy enough, it worked!
This morning when I woke up, I made coffee for the girl and I and then cinnamon rolls. While the rolls cooked, I did my Insanity workout. After, I ate my cinnamon roll, so did the girls, then showered up.
The girls took it upon themselves to serenade me with their drumming.
Millie is a pretty good drummer.
Next we loaded up the car. I put the double jogger in, filled our cooler bag with lunch, drinks and snacks. I checked my tire pressure (boy am I glad I did- it was at 10), went to shut the trunk door and found that Millie had helped pack too.
Maybe you'd like Minnie to ride up front?
Cheese.
We parked near the pioneer cabin and then proceeded to walk.
We decided to eat lunch outside the Butterfly House.
A visitor joined us.
Praying before our meal.
Cheese butterfly. I Love Autumn's expression in this photo.
After eating lunch, we headed in. Autumn had a butterfly land on her head for just a moment, but I wasn't quick enough with the camera. The same butterfly tried to land on Millie, she didn't know at first, but once it made it to her shoulder, Millie came UNGLUED!!
Feeding the fish.
Fish picture! Do you see the one coming to the surface to take a bite?
Life is like a box of chocolates.
After spending some time in the butterfly house and the gift shop, we made our way out on the trails.
We walked about six miles today. The girls were in and out of the jogger. Millie walked more than Autumn did, but Autumn did a lot of running back and forth too.
We walked down to the chapel. It was a nice trail. I think we should hit up sometime with a bike. I'd like to explore more, but it is so slow going on foot.
I just liked this picture.
Holding hands.
Running through the leaves.
Down by the chapel.
Inside the chapel. Autumn asked me, "Why is this church so big?" It made me laugh. I should say now before I forget... Autumn told me that she is going to ask Santa to bring me (as in Cherish) a Big Polar Express Train! I think I really need to look into booking our train excursion for December.
Hi there!
How can one little girl look so sassy?
Jumping off things has turned into quite the sport for Miss Autumn.
Autumn went and played all the cymbals, or lights!
One more of the three of us.
Right about now, Millie got grouchy. She told me the following, "Mom. Millie grouchy." I asked her why? "Mom. Millie is hot." I see. I thought it was pretty comfortable out there although, I was sweating too.
I turn and see Autumn like this and I know what is next.
Cannon ball!
Now Autumn is trying to talk Millie into doing it. Millie is telling her, "No. I can't do it. TOO scared."
Autumn says, "It is OK baby. I will catch you. Why don't you go down here, it isn't so big."
So Millie starts walking, towards Autumn.
They meet in the middle and then I catch Millie before she breaks herself.
Autumn has not had enough of a thrill yet, so she keeps heading towards taller jumps.
She lived.
On the way back to the car, Autumn picked up
Leaves. That one is mine.
Hi sweet girl.
This one is for you (Sean).
Come on Millie, lets go!
Autumn is an impressive runner. I wonder if she would like to compete in one of the kids races at Disney?
Right about this time, Millie decided that she was going to wreck my world for having her out past her nap time.
Oh my. Good thing the car is in sight!
On the drive home, both our angels
Passed out.
Autumn napped for about 30 minutes. Millie napped for about an hour. We stopped by the grocery store to pick up a butternut squash. I want to make soup tomorrow. We are home now. We had a nice day. We are having salad and pizza for dinner and chocolate chip cookies for dessert. Tomorrow is church.
I am still feeling a little bit sad. Not hearing from you today makes me wonder about this week. Then some people (Julie) say the most insensitive things. I quote, "It will be over before you know it." Why can't you just acknowledge it is a sucky time for me and how about you go nine months without your spouse. How about your child turn 5 years old without her daddy. How about you watch your child suffer for nine months having nightmares and cry over and over for her dad, the one thing you cannot give her. THEN tell me it will be over before I know it.
Anyway, like I said, we had a good day and I think I took some amazing pictures. Something to help me get through the tough times.
When I'm feeling blue, baby all I need to do, is just take a look at you.
Your current wife and favorite airman. xoxo
The count: 113 days of aching hearts.
I was so tired last night. More than normal. I know it was likely from cutting the grass. It really does a number on my allergies and I'm not sure what our course of action will be in the future in regards to that. There has to be something I can do to help me not feel so awful after having cut the grass. I'm very conscience of breathing through my nose when I'm cutting the grass, but my eyes burns and it takes several days to recover fully from mowing. I'm wondering if I should wear a hospital mask thing and some protective eye wear (I have some!)?
Anyway, I had to take an allergy pill before bed and I was just very worn out and at some point, Autumn ended up in the bed with me. I thought it was like 5 or 6 am when she climbed in, but after a few hours, I rolled over and looked at the clock and it was 3 am. SO, Miss Autumn pretty much spent the night with me.
She kept twitching though. I don't know if she was dreaming, but it was like she thought she was falling and would tense her whole body. I fussed at her and told her she needed to be still if she was going to sleep with me and crazy enough, it worked!
This morning when I woke up, I made coffee for the girl and I and then cinnamon rolls. While the rolls cooked, I did my Insanity workout. After, I ate my cinnamon roll, so did the girls, then showered up.
The girls took it upon themselves to serenade me with their drumming.
Millie is a pretty good drummer.
Next we loaded up the car. I put the double jogger in, filled our cooler bag with lunch, drinks and snacks. I checked my tire pressure (boy am I glad I did- it was at 10), went to shut the trunk door and found that Millie had helped pack too.
Maybe you'd like Minnie to ride up front?
Cheese.
We parked near the pioneer cabin and then proceeded to walk.
We decided to eat lunch outside the Butterfly House.
A visitor joined us.
Praying before our meal.
Cheese butterfly. I Love Autumn's expression in this photo.
After eating lunch, we headed in. Autumn had a butterfly land on her head for just a moment, but I wasn't quick enough with the camera. The same butterfly tried to land on Millie, she didn't know at first, but once it made it to her shoulder, Millie came UNGLUED!!
Feeding the fish.
Fish picture! Do you see the one coming to the surface to take a bite?
Life is like a box of chocolates.
After spending some time in the butterfly house and the gift shop, we made our way out on the trails.
We walked about six miles today. The girls were in and out of the jogger. Millie walked more than Autumn did, but Autumn did a lot of running back and forth too.
We walked down to the chapel. It was a nice trail. I think we should hit up sometime with a bike. I'd like to explore more, but it is so slow going on foot.
I just liked this picture.
Holding hands.
Running through the leaves.
Down by the chapel.
Inside the chapel. Autumn asked me, "Why is this church so big?" It made me laugh. I should say now before I forget... Autumn told me that she is going to ask Santa to bring me (as in Cherish) a Big Polar Express Train! I think I really need to look into booking our train excursion for December.
Hi there!
How can one little girl look so sassy?
Jumping off things has turned into quite the sport for Miss Autumn.
Autumn went and played all the cymbals, or lights!
One more of the three of us.
Right about now, Millie got grouchy. She told me the following, "Mom. Millie grouchy." I asked her why? "Mom. Millie is hot." I see. I thought it was pretty comfortable out there although, I was sweating too.
I turn and see Autumn like this and I know what is next.
Cannon ball!
Now Autumn is trying to talk Millie into doing it. Millie is telling her, "No. I can't do it. TOO scared."
Autumn says, "It is OK baby. I will catch you. Why don't you go down here, it isn't so big."
So Millie starts walking, towards Autumn.
They meet in the middle and then I catch Millie before she breaks herself.
Autumn has not had enough of a thrill yet, so she keeps heading towards taller jumps.
She lived.
On the way back to the car, Autumn picked up
Leaves. That one is mine.
Hi sweet girl.
This one is for you (Sean).
Come on Millie, lets go!
Autumn is an impressive runner. I wonder if she would like to compete in one of the kids races at Disney?
Right about this time, Millie decided that she was going to wreck my world for having her out past her nap time.
Oh my. Good thing the car is in sight!
On the drive home, both our angels
Passed out.
Autumn napped for about 30 minutes. Millie napped for about an hour. We stopped by the grocery store to pick up a butternut squash. I want to make soup tomorrow. We are home now. We had a nice day. We are having salad and pizza for dinner and chocolate chip cookies for dessert. Tomorrow is church.
I am still feeling a little bit sad. Not hearing from you today makes me wonder about this week. Then some people (Julie) say the most insensitive things. I quote, "It will be over before you know it." Why can't you just acknowledge it is a sucky time for me and how about you go nine months without your spouse. How about your child turn 5 years old without her daddy. How about you watch your child suffer for nine months having nightmares and cry over and over for her dad, the one thing you cannot give her. THEN tell me it will be over before I know it.
Anyway, like I said, we had a good day and I think I took some amazing pictures. Something to help me get through the tough times.
When I'm feeling blue, baby all I need to do, is just take a look at you.
Your current wife and favorite airman. xoxo
The count: 113 days of aching hearts.
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Oh and the allergies with mowing the lawn. They sell the thicker type masks at hardware stores for protection. It just goes on your mouth but is a bit thicker. I remember my grandpa using one for mowing the lawn. I can not do it, I am too allergic. Luckily our homeowners association does it for me!!