Reason #72 we should move to the PNW.
I feel like I should prepare you for what I'm getting ready to say, but I don't know how.
We got your box off to you yesterday.
Something distracted me from telling you that this morning.
We brought Walden with us to the post office, but when I started putting things in the box, Autumn says she doesn't want to send you Walden.
I asked her why and her eyes well with tears.
I don't push. I just say if you are sure, that is good enough for me.
Today, Autumn comes to me and says,
"Mom, do you know why I couldn't send Walden to daddy?"
Me: No. Do you want to tell me?
Autumn: If daddy dies, what if Walden doesn't come back to me. I won't have a daddy, but I won't have a Walden either.
Now she starts crying.
Autumn: but if daddy dies, he won't have anyone.
I stopped everything I was doing (cooking dinner) and talked with her.
I told her that daddy wants her to keep her Walden here, with her.
Then I told her that I hardly ever worry about her daddy dying because I believe that God is watching over you and I know in my heart that whatever might happen, God always has our best interest in mind. Plans not to harm us.
I helped her dry up her tears and she said she was happy that you wanted her to keep her Walden.
All of this is just another reason we should move.
Moving means you are retired and no more deployments.
Here I was thinking how Autumn has handled this deployment so well, but forgetting how she internalizes so much.
She has thought every day that you might die and it would be her fault if you died alone because she couldn't bear to part with Walden.
I hope I handled that situation in a way that took the responsibility off of her.
Your current wife and favorite airman. XOXO
72 days.
We got your box off to you yesterday.
Something distracted me from telling you that this morning.
We brought Walden with us to the post office, but when I started putting things in the box, Autumn says she doesn't want to send you Walden.
I asked her why and her eyes well with tears.
I don't push. I just say if you are sure, that is good enough for me.
Today, Autumn comes to me and says,
"Mom, do you know why I couldn't send Walden to daddy?"
Me: No. Do you want to tell me?
Autumn: If daddy dies, what if Walden doesn't come back to me. I won't have a daddy, but I won't have a Walden either.
Now she starts crying.
Autumn: but if daddy dies, he won't have anyone.
I stopped everything I was doing (cooking dinner) and talked with her.
I told her that daddy wants her to keep her Walden here, with her.
Then I told her that I hardly ever worry about her daddy dying because I believe that God is watching over you and I know in my heart that whatever might happen, God always has our best interest in mind. Plans not to harm us.
I helped her dry up her tears and she said she was happy that you wanted her to keep her Walden.
All of this is just another reason we should move.
Moving means you are retired and no more deployments.
Here I was thinking how Autumn has handled this deployment so well, but forgetting how she internalizes so much.
She has thought every day that you might die and it would be her fault if you died alone because she couldn't bear to part with Walden.
I hope I handled that situation in a way that took the responsibility off of her.
Your current wife and favorite airman. XOXO
72 days.
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