Driveway Shenanigans

It is hard to get a picture of what Autumn's feet, elbows and knees look like. I don't know why. This was the best I could do.

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Sort of crazy to think that it isn't a bruise per se. In person, it looks much worse than this, but it doesn't seem to matter what light I am in, it just does not show up on the camera. This is all that is left of our little problem today. I do not see the rash at all, anywhere on her body. Autumn still has 3 to 4 times a day a sudden onset of rash and intense itching, but after 20 to 30 minutes, the rash is completely gone, although the itching still remains. I won't point it out in every picture, but look at Autumn's feet. That is not a shadow you are seeing.

She is still complaining about her belly hurting. This will have to be brought up at the doctors appointment. She told me today that her heart hurt too. This is the 2nd time she has told me her heart hurts and that freaks me the hell out. I listened to her heart beat and it sounded normal. I don't hear anything out of the ordinary. I asked her if she meant her belly and she said her belly did hurt, but so does her heart. I asked her to show my where and she put her hand right over her heart.

My gut is telling me that it truly is her stomach bothering her and that can sometimes feel like it is your heart. I will be sure to tell the doctor when we go on Friday. I hope I am not making a mistake by waiting on that. It isn't like Autumn to just make stuff up, but she is running around, acting "mostly normal", so it is hard to say for sure what the right answer is.

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This morning on our way to take Millie to school. My two pig tailed girls!

While dropping Millie off, Miss Keri came out and gave Autumn a get well card from her class. It was so sweet. She also gave Autumn her assignments for the week. Autumn LOVES doing those worksheets. Autumn told me as she was looking at her card that, "my friends missed me and love me so they made me this card." So sweet of her classmates to do that for her.

Autumn and I headed out to Target and picked up Hotel Transylvania. Have you seen it Sean? I uploaded the digital copy if you want to watch it. Let me know.

After that Autumn told me she really wanted a waffle and to have breakfast with Grandma. We called your mom and invited her to breakfast and she said yes! We went and picked her up and then headed over to the Egg and I. Your mom and I talked on the way over there and I told her thank you for being there for me the last few days. Your mom started talking about how things had been going and how she was feeling and started to cry. She was so worried over Autumn and she said she didn't realize it, but it is like Autumn and Millie are her own children.

The Egg and I was really good! I got an artichoke Florentine eggs Benedict and I loved it! Autumn had her waffles and loved it. I was intending to treat your mom, but she ended up treating us.

After eating our breakfast, Autumn started laying out on the bench in the restaurant and saying she was so tired and just wanted to nap. That was the moment when I knew for sure I made the right choice in keeping her out of school this week. This reminds me too that she is not ready to skip any benadryl doses. I am even going to set my alarm for midnight to give her the dose she needs over night. The poor girl woke me up at 130 am with one of her episodes of rash/intense itching. It breaks my heart and I would in a second take those rashes for her if I could. I hate to see her suffer that way. I feel like one of those brand new mom's who is not getting enough sleep at night and I'm walking around in my pj's and unkempt hair scratching my head asking "where am I and what day of the week is it again?" Over and over and over again. I just cannot keep up with that right now.

Anyway, we took your mom back home and Autumn wanted to stay with her, so I picked Millie up from school. Got back to your mom's and Autumn's rash was starting to break out again, so we had to go home and get her medicine. I'm an idiot. I should be carrying the benadryl with me at all times right now.

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So sleepy. Autumn napped for two or three hours today and Millie took a long nap too. I got about 20 minutes. It is SO hard for me to take a nap during the day. I wish I didn't suck in that regard.

Once everyone woke up from nap time, we headed outside. Autumn has been having sensitivity to the sun recently. She was out in it for all of five minutes yesterday and her face got red, like a sunburn and it took hours to go away. This evening it was cloudy, so I figured safe for her to go outside and have some fun.

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She wanted to hopscotch. Autumn wrote all her numbers by herself and with no assistance from me. She is such an amazing little girl.

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Miss Millie came to play too. Oh man. When the girls took their bath tonight. I pulled off Miss Millie's eye patch and oh my gosh... the eye boogers were awful!!!!!!!!! I hope this cold she has clears up quickly and that Autumn doesn't catch it.

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Autumn teaching Millie how to play.

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Autumn's hopping is pretty hilarious.

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Case in point! Millie's playing is hilarious!!!

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I read on Autumn's steroid medicine that it weakens the immune system, which is another reason I am keeping her out of school. I've heard from some of my mom friends that this medicine makes their kids moody and Autumn has been dealing with that too. One minute she will be very happy, the next minute angry and another minute emotional. I thought it was the benadryl (making her tired and then trying to stay awake), but a good friend of mine told me she goes through something similar with her son when he has to be on steroid treatment. We only have one more dose of the steroid tomorrow. I am glad and worried about that all at the same time.

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More ridiculous hopping and a great time to tell you Autumn's "joke."

Autumn: I have a joke for you and it is a nice joke. You will like it. One day a chicken got on the roof and he died there. Then he peed.

OUR CHILDREN ARE WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!

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My heart.

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Autumn's heart.

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Millie is pretty awful at this game.

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Hopping or running, the same thing for her!

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Don't laugh, but Millie couldn't even see her rock so that she would know which square to skip! Autumn was getting so exasperated with her, but Millie finally just yelled at her, "I cannot see!" It made me laugh!

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Autumn was like, "It is right here Millie!"

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Cheese chalk.

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My other heart.

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Do you see that "letter" on the ground? Millie's E.

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Autumn's art. She drew the heart in my dress and said that we were holding hands because we love one another.

This next one I am so EXCITED TO SHARE WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

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Absolutely amazing!

Once we got tired of the chalk playing (not sure if you noticed the sprinkles in our pictures), I reheated some pizza we had over the weekend for dinner. We ate outside on the driveway. Autumn started some Shenanigans.

When I initially clicked this picture, I had no idea she was getting ready to do what she did....

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WOW! It looks like something I would have done to one of my younger sisters. Look at Autumn's face! Can you tell that Millie is like, "what, is something happening?"

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I fussed at Autumn to go and get her sister before she tumbled down the hill. Good grief!

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They clearly were having a good time though.

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Silly girl.

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Autumn told me she was giving Millie a shower.

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Millie's turn to push Autumn.

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This is where Autumn ate her dinner (Autumn's hand).

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This is where I ate my dinner.

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I love that Millie girl. My pirate princess.

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Up to no good!

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She was telling Millie she wouldn't fall out because she was clicked in.

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Millie enjoying the ride!

I love you and I miss you Sean Jordan. You should see my new gray hairs that popped up this weekend. I know I probably shouldn't allow stress to affect me so physically, but when you see what happened to Autumn the way I did, and all that worry about whether she would make it out of the hospital, it was bound to affect me so deeply. I just cannot imagine a life where she, or Millie or you were taken away from me. I don't want to imagine that kind of life and just how distraught I would be. Anyway, we did make it out and everything is going to be OK, but how I long to be in the safety of your arms and just let all this pent up emotion out of my system once and for all. I hope you are prepared because it is going to happen. I will do my best not to do it out in public or in front of the girls, but I cannot make any promises. I feel like I could cry for days.

Your current wife and favorite airman. xoxo

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The count: 118 and 88 days of needing you home so desperately. My heart cries out for you now unlike at any other time in our marriage.

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