It probably is not fair.

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I just do not feel like writing tonight. You already know how most of my day went because I talked to you on the phone.

I'm starting to wonder if I am dealing with depression or if I have just really had a lot on my plate.

I feel sad.

I mean, I'm not suicidal or anything, but I feel like there are more sad moments than happy ones. Part of me thinks that it is normal, and that probably a lot of people have more sad moments than happy ones, but I don't know. People don't talk about it.

I keep telling myself I am not alone, but I feel alone. When I go to church, it further reminds me that I am alone.

I do not feel like being online. I want to just unplug from all of it. I think I will take a few days away. It probably is not fair to you and I apologize for that.

I love you.

Your current wife and favorite airman. xoxo

The count: 118 and 80 days of just trying to get by.

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